“A man said to the Prophet (peace be upon him): By Allah, O Messenger of Allah, I do love you. The Prophet (peace be upon him) said: Look, what you are saying? The man said: By Allah, I love you, and repeated this sentence thrice. The Prophet (peace be upon him) said: If you really love me, then be prepared for acute poverty, for extreme hardship rushes more rapidly towards a person who loves me, than a flood flows towards its goal. "
(Narrated Abdullah ibn Mughaffal - al-Tirmidhi)
Try to recite drud for atleast 45 minutes daily,the condition of your heart will change in few days, you will find the peace of heart that you have been searching for years. The condition is that you recite it with sincerity of the heart and with maximum concentration and weeping eyes for Aaqa Kreem Sallalaho Alyhy Wslm.(Peerzada Dr. Haroon-ur-Rashid Kashmiri)